Holidays

Well, things are boring, plus I'm ill, so most days I just lay in bed and watch Buffy's, I have no money to go anywhere because I'm giving all I get to mum, and I'm even working for her without pay. I guess she needs it more than I do. Though I'm sick of this room, sick of tripping over crap when I wake up, sick of Alex's clothes everywhere, I'm ready to move the fuck out. I have a mass pimple, I don't heaps of pimples and stuff, but this one is big, and it's in my nose ): ouchies. Looks like it's just me and Jemames(toy unicorn Darcy got my for Christmas) for the holidays, which I think he's cool with, he's getting dirty though, must make him his own bed, his neck is getting all flimsy from me carrying him around everywhere, new security blanket I believe, I know it's stupid but this soft toy makes me feel better.

Sick.

So, I'm sick again, I went to town today, I cant walk for long period of time, without limping or, falling asleep haha. oh the joy of a shit immune system. Christmas was good, more excited about the taste and just being in salamanca in the sun with my pals (: My life remember, the way I wanted it.

P.SS

I HAVE NO CREDIT! WAAAH

P.S FML

Gosh things are getting tricky, especially all this relationship crap, I mean seriously boys, GROW UP, I may only be sixteen but I'm going places unlike you so you cant dictate to me about how I should run my life. I'm at a point where I'm avoiding any contact with males, well most males. I do not want a relationship and if I do it'll be because I'm in love or some shit, so fuck off! so angry.

I just want it to be Christmas already.

It's actually over.

 Okay here they are, my five favourite people with me at my leavers dinner. Noah, Kiara, Arlyn (and the car), Darcy and then my gorgeous Sophie. I have to boast slightly here, I did have people coming to me left right and center commenting on how elegant I looked, the way I walked, sat, even ate. I spent most of the night having f*cking photos taken, which was annoying, (another boast moment) I hardly left the freaking photo set, that many guys wanted to have single photos with me, it was crazy. The meals were average but I'm not going to complain, the staff were slack though, I went around to about five tables and cleared them, I had people asking 'Casey what in gods name are you doing, it's your leavers dinner?!' I just said 'Well I have nothing else to do so I might as well help out a little' I so got judged hard core.

Dancing was, painful in my shoes, it was like my shoes were trying to give birth to my feet, ah well. It was fun though regardless that I didn't know any of the mainstream music so this got a tad weird.

I made sure I went around and said a farewell to all my favourite teachers, but did the quiet slip out the back when I left, I have Mr. Stops a small smile and a wave as I walked out but apart from that I did not make a big thing out of it like most people did.

The next day was full of tears, looking back on grade ten and high school, I'm too scared to grow up. They made each class stand on the stage and wave goodbye to the school, that's what did it to me, that it was goodbye, it's strange how attached we all got to the school, it's just a building. After that we dordled down to east and then to Em's to get ready for Dyl's, the grand after party.

 Okay so, Dylan's. I didn't fall in a fire, I didn't lose my phone, I didn't hook up or bitch, I just had fun. Though I did end up being first aid lady for about three passed out, vomiting kiddies. Not that I minded, I'm used to it I guess, with dad, but I'm glad I was there to help, I'm also glad I was able to get my but into gear considering I had nearly 3/4 of a bottle of Vodka in my system. Darcy helped, by sitting and staring at the floor trying to hold back his own chuck. silly Darcy.

The night was fun, and I made sure I walked around and said goodbyes to people I might not see next year. I actually have a photo of Iris crying because I was telling he
r how beautiful she is, and she needs to remember that. Also Dylan hugged me, which was weird, we're not overly close but hey, okay enough of my blabbering, back to the details. Next morning I was fine, no hang over, nothing, I got everyone ready, made eggs and bacon for breakfast, Em and Kiara helped, considering there was about fifteen people who stayed at Justaan's. Then we just hung out for a while, playing xbox and making sure everyone had redbull or panadol etc. Over all it was WICKED

My dress is already on ebay to be sold, I sure hope it sells. Not that I'm getting the money anyway, all thanks to my darling mother, humph!
I'm not ready to let go just yet.

blood

Bought a new Christmas tree, it's white. I wanted a black one, but it really wouldn't of suited the colour scheme in our house so I recommended a white one, though my opinion doesn't really matter. I cant wait to be older and have my nice house and kids and husband and be the family to host the Christmas lunch, and have a colour coordinated tree and, dinner setting and, table features and wrapping and, to cook a marvelous meal and for everyone to be happy, oh and the bon bon things have to match the napkins. I love Christmas, I love all colour and festivity, everyones excited, kids, adults, it's a fast paced time of the year.

I bought one of those diary's with the dates in them, so I can keep track of work and school and my youth allowance, which I only get like $50 of because mum and dad only made me go on it so they got the money. There is only like two-three weeks of 2010 left. This year has gone ever so fast. Excited to move out. All I need to organise is my money, get a steadier job, and everything should be okay (: I REALLY need to go for my L's. Maybe I should wait until I get my P's before I move out.

I'm really quite proud, I've been turning away bad food lately, I need to get into shape. I'm not putting weight on or anything, I guess I should exercise. If I move out I'd really like to move to bellerive so I could walk to school and, catch a bus to the pool once or twice a week. I don't know. I'd really love to live close to town but it's so expensive. I'm moving into Soph's within the new year. I'll work it out, it's scary.